deserve God's best.

I won't settle for second best.
second best doesn't mean he isn't special.
it just means he is not the best for me.
he is for someone else & they will be the best for him.

i go into things with all of my heart & i'm not sure it's the best idea.
but maybe it is... then they can know me fully.
but then whats left for my husband?
God will restore what i've given away.
He just does that sort of thing.

I can't handle the manipulation.
my heart is not a joke.
this isn't a game.
it's not something to play with.
respect me, please stop.
i am done.

i am not for you.
i pray you choose the one God has for you.
i am not upset with you.
you treated me well.
you ARE sweet.
your wife will love & adore & want ONLY you, just as you deserve.
Don't ever lose hope in that.

i need to be strong.
i will be strong.
i will not break.
He will strengthen me & get me through this.

I'm still waiting for THE one guy that God has chosen for me.
He'll come one day.
I'll know it when i meet him, from day one.
Thats just how it's going to be.
I have no doubts.

He'll be the romantic guy God made him to be.
Thats what i want. That is who God has chosen for me.
I won't settle for anything other than HIM.


God, I pray for healing. for strength. for forgivness. for friendship in the end, if thats what you have chosen. for growth in You. To be closer to You in the end. Let everything be for You and Your glory. Let us both realize it's just a step closer to the ones we're made to be with. It was not a bad thing at all.


Amen.